QUOTE(newfakename @ Mar 14 2010, 09:35 AM)
That might actually be funny, if I didn't know better.
But since we're at it...Isn't your sole purpose for being here and the reason you're even here in the first place our mutual pal joe coughlin?
Not one word on his behalf?!? Really?!? That's pretty twisted. I hope you find your cupcake,
Cupcakes are wicked important,
that's right- you do know better, which means this was a pretty nasty dig on your part- and knowing my personal history as you do, about as hurtful as it could get
and yes, I wouldn't have known about the board if it wasn't for Joe- I'm not totally clear on your point- are you saying I continue on here only because of Joe- you seem to have all the answers, I'll leave that up to you
a better question to ask yourself would be why do you care?
since you've elected to challenge my behavior here, I'll step up and answer
you want to judge my writing about cupcakes while not making a public support of joe as twisted- in order to do that you must be making some presumptions about how I feel
do you really know how I feel? again, why should you care? why the need to call me on my behavior? will chastising me publicly amongst his supporters and friends heal him? or does it do something for you personally? do you look more like a hero to him if he finds out about this? does that solidify your standing in his eyes? is he hurt and angry that I haven't posted something publicly along with his throngs of other admirers?
the wednesday morning I read the thread about him was before I went out the door to work
I had no one to talk to about it, I carried it around with me all day- a huge cannonball of angst that sat in my stomach all day, and there isn't an hour that goes by since that I don't wonder how he's doing, that I haven't felt like I was on an emotional roller coaster. But it isn't supposed to be about me, so I've kept silent, knowing there was nothing I could do for him, nothing I could offer him that he needed and probably didn't even want from me, judging by the last words he wrote here and in personal emails. I even considered cooking some meals and offering them to you, knowing how exhausted you must be from spending all that time being there for him and still having your family to look after.
I couldn't bring myself to put some mundane "all the best to you Joe" in a thread. I didn't know what to say or how to say what I wanted to, and I still don't.
I've made the mistake in the past of putting personal stuff out here that was hurtful to both of us. Maybe it's karma that I'm being challenged to do it again. So be it. This will be the last time I write anything publicly about Joe. Joe I'm sorry for any embarrassment I may have caused you. As for you, Connie, I think it's time you stopped butting in and chastising me. You're where you want to be. Any other discussion about this or anything else will only take place face to face. And that includes you Judy. I've had enough drama, I've had enough with the backstabbing, behind the scenes gossiping and two-faced behavior.
so Connie, anything from now on about joe and I is strictly between joe and I, okay? if there's anything he needs from me, he can ask and I'll do my best to meet it